Mirror mirror on the wall, why am I not the fairest of them all?

As usual my sisters and I were discussing Big Brother last night, yes it is the sum of our existence. If you're through judging I'll carry on then...so we begin to speculate how we'd do in the Big Brother house.

We decide that Ayanda would be awesome because she's got such a sunny disposition, it would be near impossible not to get along with her. She's tolerant, smart and beautiful, the housemates and Africa would love her.

Ayanda (in the white hat) with Tema our little sister.

Anele is the middle child so growing up she had to find ways to not be overlooked so she read the entertainers memo and wrote her own! she's funny, gorgeous and so smart, most importantly she isn't scared of being embarassed, which would make her such a joy to watch. Eat your hearts out Africa!

Anele tapping into her inner diva

Then me. *cue crickets* I make a terrible first impression, absolutely shocking. I'm painfully shy, I live in my head and I'm unsettled by people who seem to have an interest in being friends with me. There's an "I'm not worthy" quality in my personality that I've been trying to shake off for the longest time - abandonment issues. So based on that I would absolutely be voted out first. However if Africa were patient with me they, like everyone else who sticks around in my life, would discover what an "ok" person I am (ok is a gross understatement I'm awesome!).

I've been told I'm funny, smart, beautiful and all sorts of other things which are destructive to the ego. If a gun were held to my head I'd probably acquiesce to the first 2 bold claims, the beauty one I struggle with. I actually don't know how to react to that specific compliment...ever. I mean obviously I'm not a dog but I've never been the most beautiful woman in the room, so that's a compliment that'll have me running in the opposite direction. When you talk about my mind then I'm on familiar ground and I even have comebacks for you.

It's a sad thing really, but growing up with stunning sisters and friends has allowed me to grow into my own and become more comfortable in my own skin. I'm not at the point where I'll bat my lashes coyly yet but I may flash a smile.

I always say, I'm an adequately wrapped present that doesn't work the first time you use it, but as you try more and more often and finally get the gift working you wonder how you got by without it.  

Me rolling like a boss

In the voyeuristic name of Big Brother

I did something stupid last night. I slept at 01:30. Yes in the morning. I tried to tear my eyes away from the Big Brother housemates but I couldn't, I think I may need help.

I've heard all the arguments, "reality TV isn't mentally stimulating", "reality TV isn't even real", "why would you want to watch people just sit around and talk?" and I have an answer everytime! Reality TV does stimulate my mind maybe not as much as reading a book would but stimulation does indeed take place when I indulge in my not-so-guilty pleasure. It's not real, what is?! Reality itself is perception, when I tell you something that I am sure beyond a shadow of a doubt is real someone else could come and tell you the opposite angle of the very same story and both versions are still true. Perception. And as far as watching people sit around and talk, that's exactly why I love the show. We live in a culture that has allowed us to drift further and further away from personal interaction. We have emails, cellphones, Skype, Facebook, Twitter, blogs so many of these things that we use to communicate as opposed to just talking to each other. I find myself wondering how I'd fare if I were stripped of my phone, computer, TV, radio, books, newspapers and I just had to rely on the people sharing my living space to entertain me. Fascinating social experiment.

I love the housemates, the interactions at the moment can be likened to walking on a "kind" landmine - it hasn't decided to blow yet but you know it will. There are too many strong personalities in the house. Here are my impressions and wishes for the season.

Impressions
Lerato: She's hilarious. I get the feeling that she's struggled to click with the housemates in the first 2 days (which I grant is very early) so she stuck to the devil she knows, Meryl. I like Lerato because she's smart and funny and I'm looking forward to watching her this season because I missed her last time.

Meryl: She's so provocative and I haven't quite made up my mind about her.

Yacob: Very intelligent and my sister's are adamant that he's a snake and such a gossip. I've never watched him so I like him.

Mwisho: I didn't like him when he came in because I couldn't figure him out and kinda like his inverted mohawk he's growing on me.

Wishes:
I would love for some love to take place in the house, Jen and Uti would be the cutest BBA couple ever!!! Lerato seems to be crushing on Mwisho, they'd also make a interesting pair. Sheila and Hannington/yacob and Meryl and Munya. Please Big Brother deities make it happen.

Jen and Uti

Having said all that, sleeping at 01:30 has not been one of my brightest ideas. I woke up feeling like I'd just been run over by a bus and I still had to get on that same damn bus! Not a good day. My fear as I sit here is that today will be a repeat performance, pray with me not to let it happen.

Big Brother the return

My sisters and I stayed up late last night watching the first episode/day of Big Brother Africa 3. We are such warriors for reality TV - rehab has been proposed and promptly rejected. So it began with Idols which had us rolling on the floor with laughter. Then it moved on to BBA which we had been anticipating eagerly.

What an interesting bunch of people! So controversial, so outspoken...good times ahead. Who can forget Tatiana and her scorching romance with the married Richard. Munya and his quick decline in popularity after he did the nookie with Tawana. Lerato and Meryl *cue the untouchables*. Uti's sudden outburst after Lucille was evicted which left people speculating on whether he nursed secret feelings for her. Jen's sudden departure. Yacob's scheming. Sheila's astonishing beauty and her tom-boyish behaviour.

Last night Twitter was buzzing with comments about Tatiana's shameless flirting with Sean Paul, @khayadlanga said "Tatiana would really like to have Sean Paul's babies, if not babies at least to practice making them". BBA coupled with Twitter will make for great viewing.

It will be an undoubtedly great season of BBA. Kinda like putting all the bullies and popular kids in the same playground to see who survives. Don't you love it?