My slice of happiness

My life continues to amaze me. Little blessings, small mercies. My sisters make me laugh till my stomach hurts, my Dad continues to share his pearls of wisdom, my mom is still trying to find out what's going on in my life by interrogating my sisters who are useless allies to have. "I thank you God for this most amazing" ee cummings knew what was up when he wrote that poem. It feels like my personal life is finally where it should be.

I'm happy, nervous, anxious, moody but just very happy right through that kaleidoscope of emotions. My sisters have the strangest conversations, yesterday Tema, my 12 year old sister walks into Ayanda's bedroom and Ayanda had just woken up from a nap. Tema sits at the foot of her bed and stares at her. Pause.
Ayanda "What are you doing?"
Tema "Nothing, I just want to spend time with you."
Cute or creepy. But this is my life, these are the people I live with.

I've also found a slice of happiness too but that's all I'll say for now. I've found my smile again and I don't know how to switch it off. I don't want to switch it off.

Life hasn't been without it's hurdles but I used to be an athlete many moons ago so it ain't even no thang!

God's been great. My life's been behaving. I'm in a good place and I'd like to stay here for as long as possible before the train pulls out and takes me to the next stop.

Still smiling

I've neglected my digital homies for a while now. My life has just been a rollercoaster ride, without the restraints to stop me falling on my head. I've been feeling pulled and pushed every which way, and maybe the reason I haven't been coping as well as usual is because I haven't put pen to paper (you know what I mean) in a while. 

My head is spinning, my heart is racing, I just wish everything could slow down and let me catch a breath but time waits for no man. No matter how awesome. I need a hiatus, get away from everyone, everything and regroup, take things back to the drawing board, outline my aims and objectives. I get so caught up with trying to make sure everyone's happy, my smile is always ready to brighten up someone's day. There's a cliche; "smiling at someone takes nothing away from the giver" (I actually may have just made that up). Anyway I discovered that that's not altogether true, smiling when you really have no business to is taxing, slowly eating away at you until your smile carries no weight. I've spent the last few weeks smiling at everyone and I just recently realised that I've done very little smiling to the pretty something in the mirror.

Anyway, don't you guys ever get the feeling that if you talk about something too much it just gets weird like I may never smile again 'cause: see previous paragraph! But as usual I digress.

Stressed, neurotic, happy, excited - no matter how I feel I stay awesome. Someone's gotta do it.